I've got some news. I'm withdrawing from graduate school. I haven't figured out the whole logistics yet with everything about this semester but I know for sure I wont be returning next semester. I'm staying in Pittsburgh because I love the life I'm building here. Sure I wish all my friends were here but I really like living here, the city, the people for the most part. It feels right.
Grad school hasn't felt right for a really long time. I should have said something earlier, I know that. But I kept waiting for it get better. I thought it would and I thought if I would have spoken up sooner my parents would have said try it for just a little longer. I didn't tell anyone how I was feeling. I don't know why I felt the way I did but I felt like I should like school and people would just think I was being silly. But that was all totally me. I knew my friends wouldn't judge like that. But still I felt a bit weird about discussing my feelings. I shouldn't have. I should have let it out before it all boiled over, like tonight.
The isn't a decision I've taken lightly. I haven't made a rash decision here. I've thought about it for about 2 months now. I'm not sure what I am going to do next but I think thats the best part. For the first time in my life, I don't know what's coming next and I'm excited. I keep reminding myself that I do have a college degree and if further down the road, I want to go back to grad school I can. It just wasn't the right thing for me right now. But hey, at least I tried, thats the most important part to me.
So here's to the future and the unknown.
Cheers!
4 comments:
Once again, GO YOU.
You are completely awesome for doing what makes you happy. I know it was a hard decision and I am so proud of you for not settling.
Never settle. Always do what will make you happy. That way you will never regret a thing. And you'll be happy which is always a good thing.
And good for you for knowing what you want. Not all people have that going for them. And look at all the opportunities you have now! YOU CAN DO ANYTHING!
I feel like I need to comment, but I don't have the words to say all the things I am thinking. I am so happy you gave grad school a try and now know that its not what you want. (No matter what I type it isn't going to come out right!) Anyhow, The world is open to you, and you can do whatever it is you want to do!
(We need to chat in person, I am so excited for T-day!)
Dear Moi,
I am writing you to tell you how very much I love you. You are fun, smart, independent, and unafraid. You will do great things in the world, and I cannot wait to look back on life in 10 years or so to giggle at SleepyGirl on a bucking bronco and various other shenanigans.
And just think, with Bush successfully usurped the only way we can move is up! You have chosen a good time to set out on your adventure (and a great city, too).
I think I speak for all of the A8 girls--official and squatting--when I say we are here for you, whatever you need! Just ask.
Love!
~me
P.S.~ Oh, and don't wear those socks with those shoes.
::: hugs :::
You rock, girl. Welcome to the dark side of people who are awesome like ME and *aren't* in grad school.
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