#309

Not having internet and cable at home is strange. Weird in that I don't miss cable at all. I just sub in other activities for the time spent being a couch potato. I do miss internet and it drives me crazy not having it. Though the crazy is getting smaller and smaller. So who knows, maybe some day I wont miss it at all?

Since I have to go to public places to use the internet, I've learned some things.
1) old men feel 100% comfortable just plopping down at my table and starting a conversation even though I have no interest in them. They just talk and talk while I keep my focus on the computer. It's really awkward.
2) groups of women who get together to chat over coffee are super annoying. They are loud and talk about themselves incessantly. The topics of conversation are usually super self indulgent and about crazy things such as silver cavity fillings or buying bottles of wine for waiters because they should know what the wine tastes like in case customers ask.
3) I like not living in the immediate city but I hate suburban white women. They are so whiny and really suck at driving.

Snow flurries have started in PGH. The people out here already can't drive. Adding in snow is major and causes them to use their brakes about 99.9% of the time. Going up hill, going down hill, turning requires a complete stop now. I miss being able to drive to work but I don't miss living in Squill.

I'm making my mom's Christmas present and I'm super nervous about it. But I always get nervous about gift giving for that woman so I shouldn't be too surprised. Speaking of my mom, she's still not over me moving in with Wombat. The passive aggressive swiping and pawning her issues off on other people is not appreciated. I wish she'd get over it. The rest of my immediate family seems just fine with it. Who knows about the extended family? But I don't really care about them.

#308

• Today turned into a cell phone free day as I lost the phone or left it at home or something. Whatever I did, I don't have it with me and it's nice.
• Looked in my closet for appropriate outfit for Frances' wedding. Have determined nothing is right but have no money to buy something new. I'll have to go all project runway with my sewing kit and make something fabulous myself. Or just wear a sheet.
  
• After spending almost $100 tuning up my car, I brilliantly drove with the emergency brake and ruined the rear brakes. Something I didn't quite realize until I was trying to stop before smashing into a delivery truck. Lessons learned: 1)don't drive with the e brake on, 2)pump the brakes when they stop working, it slows you down, 3)Wombat is quite handy with fixing cars when I destroy them
• Wombat said he'd buy me a convertible. I'd just have to rebuild the engine myself. That can't be too hard right?
  

#307

I think I shall make Sundays cell phone free days. I kinda like not being tied to my phone for just one day. It's a bit freeing but I bet it'll never last.

I just looked up the weather in Raleigh and it's supposed to be in the 90s when we're there. Ugh! I'm really into fall and wearing all of my fall clothes. I don't want to pull the sundresses and shorts back out of storage. I also don't want to drive through West Virginia for a majority of the trip. I'm trying to convince him to let us drive through Maryland, Washington D.C. and Virginia instead. I think it'll be better that way. I'm excited for the trip but I can't lie, I'm a little nervous about it.

I've lost count as I don't actually visit my blog anymore, FAIL

I slept walked (sleep walked?) the other night. It was totally creepy, like I could feel myself doing it and couldn't stop it. Not a huge fan of that at all.

I went back to 80's night after taking a four months off. While I don't think it'll become a weekly thing again, it was nice to get out and dance.

The house is still in boxes. It's sad. I have no energy or motivation to unpack. I should really get on that as last night I invited his coworkers over for fondue. That's right, I'm breaking out the fondue pot from it's years long hiatus. CHEEESEEEEEE

I'm excited for fall just like Pomme. I think this season has the best fashion and I totally feel my cutest in the cardigans. I really want to get a pumpkin this year. We have the perfect front porch for it.

Life is in no way perfect. Things are all jumbled and in some ways messed up. But I'm ridiculously happy. I know it's cheesy and sappy and lame and I'd been fighting it for a long time. It's really nice. Okay, that's all I'll say, promise.

#305

It started on vacation and has continued once I returned to real life. I'm only getting 5 hours of sleep a night. I feel like crap. I look like crap. Everyone tells me I look tired. I am tired. I go to bed exhausted. I wake up exhausted. I miss sleeping.
Also, I think I've run out of internet. I can't think of anything else I want to look up or explore. So basically I just refresh facebook all day long. Ohhhh this is sad.

#304

I am successfully moved into the Full House. It was an adventure with lots of rushing around and improvising but it's done. Yay! It feels so good to be out of Squirrel Hill. I really started to loathe that neighborhood near the end. But who knows, maybe I'll be back?

I am awake after only 5 hours of sleep. I feel like I was hit by a truck and I couldn't figure out why. Then I remember we went to the bar to celebrate after moving. I had two whole beers which normally wouldn't make me feel this way but I guess after not eating a whole lot yesterday it was enough.

We were sitting outside the bar last night, drinking in the night air, when a guy I've only met a few times who never ever remembers me asked if I was hungry. Ummm, yeah I was starving. He disappeared and returned a few minutes later with a hot dog and a box of chicken wings. They were the most delicious things ever.

I also ate at a Chick-fil-A. I'm sad that my dislike of chicken has led me to never try this place. I found it actually pretty delicious and they have waffle fries. I'm a sucker for anyplace that has waffle fries. The only weird thing about this place is it is closed on Sundays. A bit like Hobby Lobby.

Ohhhhhhhh, I got a road bike yesterday. It is a Bianchi. I've always wanted a Bianchi. It'll probably be my only Italian made method of transportation ever. It feel off of a bike rack and somersaulted down the highway so somethings need to be fixed but then it'll be fully functional. I am surprised to admit it but this biking thing is kind of addictive.

#303

I saw practically all of you updated last night and I felt the urge to join in. I do better with bullet points so I'll go with that.

• The apartment search still continues. It is getting to be super frustrating. I'm so sick of moving every year for the past 7 years so I was hoping we could find a place where we wouldn't mind staying put for at least 2. Maybe I'm just being super picky? I don't know. However, since we haven't found a place yet and my lease is up in 3 days, I get to move in with the boyfriend at his house with his two roommates. And the one roommate's fiance is also moving in due to the same circumstances. It's like a really twisted version of Full House. I just keep reminding myself that it is only for a month and I'll be gone for a week of it. Who knows, maybe we'll find a place whose lease starts mid-August.
• This being part of a couple thing has its ups and downs. Definitely more ups than downs but it's not always smooth sailing. Trying to figure out how to deal with stress and moving and a significant other can be hard. I'll admit I lost it a bit on Tuesday. I was just really sick of everything. Of being patient with others and them never ever returning the patience. Of them never thinking of how their actions are affecting anyone else but them. It's not him but I was maybe taking a bit of it out on him. It's really frustrating and I don't want to deal with it anymore. But a morning spent with Sniper helped me get back on track. And then I lost my phone which just kinda sent me into one of those crazy laughing fits where I just didn't care anymore.
• I got the phone back with limited craziness. It is a bit beat up and the lens on the camera is cracked. But it is functional and I really don't care much past that.
• I had a bit of a 'whoa! this is totally weird and foreign to me' moment when I was shopping for a birthday card for his sister and I realized we'd sign the card together. It seemed so official couply. I don't know why I had a problem with it and I got over it. I guess it just seems like something my parents do and they are grown ups and I am but a wee child still. Or something like that. But she liked my card and loved my gift and that felt pretty awesome.
• Lately, I've felt a lot closer to my dad than my mom. It's nice and I'm enjoying the conversations with my dad. But I feel really lonely without my mom. Our conversations seem strained at times and then at others, she can be kinda snarky at me. I get that she's going through a lot right now and I'm going through a lot right now. Perhaps we're just handling it all the same which makes it difficult for us to help the other one. I don't know but I'm hoping it corrects itself on vacation. I miss her.
  

#302

It is for sure cancer. I feel a lot calmer knowing but I think I am the only one. My mom is really off her game and it's weird. We find out what kind and course of treatment on Wednesday so for now, it's just more waiting.

I introduced the boyfriend (I cannot think of a nickname for him at all) to my dad's side of family this weekend. It was a lot easier than I expected. My grandma was cranky wanted to know why was he dating me because it sure wasn't for my high paying job but everyone else seemed really nice. AUNT and Cogene took the initiative and decided to invite him for Christmas and a camping trip in the fall. And then he accepted so I guess we're spending Christmas in Michigan.

#301

Getting a phone call from home at work is never good especially when it's your mom letting you know that your grandpa might have oral cancer. They find out for sure on friday. Normally when this stuff happens, my mom is totally cool and explains everything in her nurse like way. But this time it was different. She sounded worried and unsure and scared.
The cancer I can deal with, it's happened before with other grandparents. But she told me if he has it, it is going to require major facial surgery and that really gets me. Just the fact that my grandpa may not look the way he has always looked before seems totally bizarre.

I'm just really sick of cancer. It's been popping up a lot lately and I could use a break from it.

#300

Whoops, I disappeared for a month. It wasn't my intention but it just sorta happened.

I've discovered I will be spending the 4th of July here with my dad's side of the family. It is going to be a lot of people in one house. I've done that before with my mom's side but I think this may be trickier. I'm going to arm myself with my laptop and some sort of alcoholic beverage at all times. I've been told that there will be kegs and numerous bottles of wine. I'm trying to psych myself up for this by hoping that there will be ranch dispensers in all of the rooms.

In August, I'll be going on a family vacation with my parents to Charleston. I actually excited for this one. It should be a week of relaxation and beach and my dog. I really can't think of anything wrong with that. There are a lot of logistics before I can make it to the vacation such as find a new apartment, move to new apartment, find new job, not explode from all of the stress. I think it is doable. But sometimes, I'm just not so sure.

#299

Life:

• I finally got around to ordering my messenger bag; I went with the yellow and white one. The bike shop ended up gifting it to me. I was really touched and surprised. They also threw in a blinky light to clip to it for riding at night. I think I am now officially a cyclist, hahaha!
• I went on an inaugural ride with the bike and a friend. Somehow going at dusk through traffic to a bike where we rode the trails deep down into the valley to drink some beer seemed like the best idea. It was terrifying and a lot of fun! I think I shall do it again.
• I also think the bike ride may be why my left leg currently looks like this:
• They really mean it when they say NO PARKING. I got my car towed. I got my car back. It was fun but nothing I would like to repeat any time soon.
• Yesterday, Sniper and I took off to run around the city in celebration of her 25th birthday. We painted pottery and visited the Phipps. We saw the Agave plant that only blooms once in a 100 years then dies. It looked just like a plant.
  
• For the first time in 10 years when given the opportunity to plan the family vacation, I passed. I gave my mom the names of some websites and turned it over to her. I had absolutely no desire to plan the relaxing dream week for everyone else. I think we're going to Charleston, SC and we may be getting a condo or house. But I'm not really sure. I'll just show up with a bathing suit and it'll be just fine.
• Ohhh and I'm kinda seeing someone. It's new and fun! and we'll just see where it goes.
  

#298

I got a bike!!

That's right, a bike. It's super cute and blue! That's about all I know about it other than it has a Panasonic frame. My friend built it for me and then surprised me at work with it. Some dude I had only met once bought me some really nice tires for it. And then I was gifted a helmet and a lock. Its all pretty sweet!! Makes me smile uncontrollably really.

There's only one problem. They all expect me to ride it except the thought of riding in Pittsburgh traffic with Pittsburgh hills seems terrifying. I need some Michigan terrain, all flat and not cobblestones.

#297

Ok, so this town is entirely too small. I run into people I know all the time. It doesn't matter what neighborhood I'm in, I can find someone. And usually it really bugs me.

I mean, back in MI I can go weeks, months without running into someone I know in public. Sometimes I feel like I know absolutely no one in my hometown. So it really confuses me here, in a city of millions, I keep bumping into the same people.

But tonight for some reason, even in my bad, funky mood, seeing someone I knew made me feel a little bit better. It reaffirmed my love for this crazy, upside down town. A weird city that has captured my heart and refuses to let go. I can't quite put into words why I feel so connected here. I just know I'm not ready to move on from PGH just quite yet. Anyway, it made me feel just a little bit better and it's what I needed.

#296

I wavered back and forth about posting this and then I thought screw it. If I can't be grumpy on my own blog than where can I be?

I want all of my best friends living in the same city. I want a job I like. I want to do things on my own time frame. I don't want critiques from others. I want people to back off. I want others to step up. I want an apartment with long, flowy curtains. I want my car back. I want to cook again. I want people to stop wondering. I don't run through guys like that, I just don't. I want to stop second guessing my own feelings. I want to jump in rain puddles and blow bubbles. I don't want to be frustrated anymore. I want to be by myself and surrounded by others all in the same instant. I just want out for a little bit.

I love the word just.

#295

I need some opinions peeps. I want to get a messenger bag but I can't decide what color. I had narrowed it down to the deep blue/yellow one but then they came out with other colors. So which one?
PS They don't seem to fit in the frame. They did when I looked at the preview. I'm too tired to mess around with it but you guys get the picture (HARHARHAR!)

#294

So I'm officially 24. I was sorta kinda freaking out about it in the days leading up to my birthday but then I was told that I have 6 more years until I'm old. I'm going to take that and run with it.

My day was pretty fabulous and full of fun. My parents took me to Pamela's for breakfast and then we stopped by the Top Chef tour where we saw Eli and Richard Blais. They are very short. I took my parents on a tour of the city and showed them the new neighborhoods I'm considering moving to in August. My mom promptly freaked out and said no. We fought a bit over it, I drank some wine, we've agreed to keep discussing it. Dinner was at Church Brew Works. I had steak, it was yummy.

My night then took me to a bar to watch the Pens game and I'm ashamed to admit I cheered them on. But I should state that I never cheered for Crosby. Next we went to Lawrenceville: Art All Night which was really, really cool. It was a huge warehouse filled with people and art and musicians and oddly enough pirates. I wished we could have spent more time there but we ended up moving to Belvedere's where they were having roller skating. And that is how I ended up roller skating in a bar on my 24th birthday. It was an adventure for sure but loads and loads of fun!

#293

Modcloth hates me. First, they sell out of every dress I want. And now that it is too late, they are cranking out super cute dresses like these:


I think I would live in cute sundresses if the world would allow me.

#292

I had an appointment with the eye doctor today. I bonded with the receptionist, Ginger. I think we're like best friends now. She helped me pick out my new glasses. I'd post the pictures I have of me wearing them but I'm making stupid faces in all of them.

But before I could get to my new glasses, they had to get approval from my insurance and it wasn't working. I had to call my mom to get my dad's SSN and she ended up giving me 2 possibilities. None of those were working either. And then it hit me, my life has been a lie. My family must be in the witness protection program and no one ever told me. Or we're royalty banished from our rightful home. God, it all makes perfect sense. But then Ginger broke my dream bubble and informed me that the insurance company had simply for some odd reason shortened my dad's name to Berna. I could have been a princess, I tell you.

I figured out how I am going to convince my parents that moving to Bloomfield or Lawrenceville is a good idea. They have Catholic Churches. No way will my parents have any issues now. Sure, I stopped going to church years ago and I don't really follow any Catholic rules anymore. That doesn't matter because with a church in my neighborhood there would be a slight, slight, slight increase in the odd chance that I may wonder into a church. Huzzah! WIN!

I've also decided I should get a handyman special apartment. And then I could paint walls and like nail stuff. I'd be awesome at it. And when you all come to visit, you could leave your mark. Think about how cool it would be, come on now, you know it would be.

#291

Life can be so ironic and cruel. Throwing the exact same situation in your face over and over again but with different people and different roles. I get it! You can stop now.

Anyway, today I wandered around Pittsburgh by myself. In all the time I've lived here, it was a first for me. I made my way to Lawrenceville for their Blossom tour. I didn't stop at all of the shops and I didn't take seeds from all of my stops. I did, however, find birthday presents for a few people who may have birthdays coming up. It was a very cool afternoon even if it was like 40 degrees out and I didn't bring gloves.

But as I wandered over Lawrenceville, I realized I really, really want to move there or Bloomfield. These neighborhoods aren't as pretty as Squirrel Hill and probably aren't as safe, not that they are super dangerous. They just aren't as family orientated. I just can't stand Squirrel Hill anymore. I feel restless and bored here. Nothing is new, nothing is exciting, nothing is inspirational. I want out.

#290

What do you do when you find out your new favorite donut place is owned by someone who's views are drastically different than yours? I don't mind that he has different views than me. The world would be so boring if we all felt the same way about everything. But I find that I'm having a big problem giving money to this business that is supposed to be about peace and love yet thinks "gays and lesbians as an immoral minority." It seems to be a big, huge contradiction. One that really, really bugs me. So event though the donuts were tasty, I don't think I could go back anytime soon.

I'm sitting in a cafe right now. It is their birthday and they are offering cappuccinos for only $.61. I haven't had a real one in a really long time. I forgot how could they can be with their frothiness. I may have to get another and then one to take with me when I leave. Also people watching is the single greatest free pastime ever. People are sooo funny.

I need to get some new headphones. I can hear that mine are about to die. They've lasted a year with is uber long for a pair of my headphones. I used to kill them within weeks. And while I will probably just buy another pair of earbuds from Target, I kind of really want to get a pair like these. They are so impractical and I would probably only use them a few times.

I discovered my mom may send me to Panama for Easter next year. Panama City, Florida not Panama City, Panama. I first assumed the country and was bewildered, certain I would die from a tropical disease but at least I would get to see the canal. I don't know how I feel about this. It probably wont happen. But just so you know, plane tickets from Pittsburgh to Panama City, Panama start at $377. That seems really cheap. It also appears to take all day to get there.

The 4th dress I picked out for my birthday is sold out. I give up and am just going to wear something in my closet. It seems like the most responsible decision and isn't that what growing up is all about.

I'm a bit late to the game but I watched the first episode of the new Doctor Who last night. I don't know what to think. I liked parts. I was bored during others. I spent most of my time screaming at the computer because I knew what he had to do and he was taking too long. I wished he would have kept young Amelia. I liked her a lot better.

Oh and with Toi's encouragement, I cut up a pair of jeans and made some shorts. So far I feel like it was the right decision and I am loving them.

#289

Why hello there! How are you today? I'm doing alright.

I spent Easter working and then I went to Easter dinner at some friends. I drank mimosas out of a purple cup shaped like a bunny's head. It had a bendy straw. It was delightful. Another highlight was a home cooked meal prepared by someone who was not me. It was delicious and while I did enjoy the vegan mashed potatoes, real ones are still king. I also realized how much I miss playing Spoons.

I've learned how to say no. Well, kinda. This guy who was at Easter dinner showed up at work today and asked me out. I almost said yes because it seemed easier. He suggested fishing and then I got really intrigued. But I held my ground and told him I was sorta seeing someone (LIE, all LIE, I'm as single as they come). So while I'm not going out on a date with him, I still couldn't bring myself to tell him flat out no. I'm working on being more assertive. I promise.

Alright, that is all I can think of which is weird because I swear I had something else to write about it but nope.

Love,

Moi

P.S. (ETA) I remembered!!! I have a cold. I would really like to breath out of both of my nostrils. Though I do really like being able to swallow without sharp pains attacking. Also, the heat wave has me sleeping with my windows open. DEAR GOD THE DAMN BIRDS ARE SOOOO LOUD. I HATE THEM. DIE BIRDS DIE!!!!

#288

Today was a day of breakthroughs.

First, I wore shorts. I don't normally wear shorts. In fact, at the end of last summer, I bought my first pair of shorts in years. I may have blinded people with my white, white skin today but it felt good.

Second, I watched Up! Now, I got the DVD for Christmas but I haven't been able to watch it until today. I saw the movie in theaters with Toi and absolutely loved it. However, the movie, especially the first 15 minutes, makes me feel all saddddddddd and a tiny, teeny bit alone.

Third, this didn't really happen today. Nor is it really a breakthrough but it made me really, really happy. I was able to order an Oberon! And it was tasty!

#287

I want to get a dress to wear for my birthday. The only problem is every dress I like is out of stock. I find one I like and then poof! it's gone. I should probably just wear the one I bought for last year and never wore. That would be the responsible thing to do. But I can't help myself, I really want a new one.

#286

It's been a while, whoops. I kept composing entries in my head but no one else can read those so this entry is dedicated to Toi!

It has now been 4 days since I started this post so I think I'm just going to write whatever comes to my mind.

• Pomme came to visit! It was awesome! I made her take the bus with me all over. We explored bridges and found a cemetery in the middle of the skyscrapers. We ate here and here and here. Yummmmmm!!! We also visited the Andy Warhol Museum. My favorite room was the 'Silver Clouds.'
• I met a member of Huey Lewis and the News. We had a drink together.
• Everyone lately has been asking me about my plans for the future and what I want to do with my life. And guess what? I have no clue. I don't know. I'm working on it.
• I went on two dates last week with two different guys. It was interesting. They were fun and I had a good time. But I just didn't feel that spark, you know? I, again, don't know. I want to feel that spark. And then I just feel bad. In fact, I saw one of the guys at the grocery store and I fled to the back of the store until he left. I'm a coward.
• Passover started last night so for the last week, work has been insane. I hate it. LOATHE IT. I'm trying to be nice about it but I can't. Not being able to eat carbs really makes people go insanely bitchy.
• My printer and I are currently engaged in a battle. I keep losing but I'm refusing to give up. I think I could win if I just keep trying.
• I went home for my cousin's wedding. I learned that my family thinks I'm an alcoholic or at the very least, a lush. Sweeeeeeeet. I really don't think it's my fault that the only time I appear in the wedding photos, I'm at the bar. It's totally the photographer's fault.

#285

Sometimes you have to do things that you don't want to do. You might really, really, really wish things would work out differently. That you could get everything you wanted. But life isn't like that.

So you end up having to do what's best for now and that is just the way it works out.

Right?

#284

I totally meant to update earlier. I've just been feeling really run down and tired. I think the winter blahs are totally in full force. I had to give up one of my days off this week. Next week looks just as crazy.

I dealt with Valentine's Day by going on a mini online shopping spree. I got some new shirts but I'm most excited about my new pair of Doc Martens. They arrived this week and are sooooo comfy. I feel like I should get some flannel, holey jeans or baby doll dress and rock out my inner early 90's chick.

I tried some homemade amaretto the other weekend. I think my uncle called it stump something. I can't quite remember. Whatever it was called, it was delicious.

I want a jeep.

#283

What is worse than being asked if you have a Valentine?

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Being asked why you don't have one?

#282

The stamp last night at 80's night read 'You Are Beautiful.' For some reason, it really tickled me.

#281

It is currently snowing outside my window. The thick, slushy, wet kind of snow. It is supposed to fall all night for a grand total of 2 to 5 inches. And thus the terror starts all over again.

The friendliness that comes from surviving snOMG '10 is very quickly vanishing. The citizens of Pittsburgh are getting very possessive over their parking spaces. Their parking spaces on public streets. They expect no one to park in their spaces while they leave them vacant to drive around the city. Pittsburghers don't quite understand the concept of public property.

They keep looking at me with looks of disbelief when I say this amount of snow is normal for winter or I don't think that it is the end of the world if we get 2 more inches of snow. They are all wacky. It just doesn't seem real anymore.

#280

Music I can't get enough of lately:

#279

The National Guard.

Pittsburgh is calling in the National Guard to help with snow removal.

I can't even comprehend that. It was just 2 feet of snow. This is so frustrating. Life has literally crawled to a halt

I read an article that encouraged people not to walk because there are reports of plows having to swerve to miss pedestrians and then getting stuck in snow drifts. It is like the entire town is stupid or something.

Today, I picked up my room, found some cash, took a shower, colored in my coloring book, baked a pizza and watched the Superbowl (YAY! Saints!) I am so bored.

#278

It is being called SnOMGpgh or snomaggendon or snopocalypse. I lovingly call it winter. I think we ended up with something like 23 inches of snow. It is really pretty.

I woke up to a phone call telling me work was closed. That was amazing. This is my first saturday that I didn't request off in over six months. I bummed around the house before venturing out to explore and get some food.

The lump in the middle is my car. The lump on the left is a SUV. A guy snowboarded down our road. It was quite awesome.

But the sun came out around 1 pm and things are already beginning to melt. Maybe I wont even have to clean off my car??

At the end of my adventure, I made a snow angel. It felt appropriate.

#277

It is snowing here in Pittsburgh. I think we already have 5 inches and it is supposed to continue until tomorrow afternoon. The city is of course shutting down. Buses have stopped running. Events are being canceled. Will Pittsburgh survive a foot of snow???

#276

Every time. It gets me every time.

#275

After a particularly long, challenging week involving a 11-hour work day, money troubles, more family drama, I was all ready to park my butt on the couch friday night. But then I got invited out and I decided I kinda deserved it so off I went.

I ended up at Gooski's in Polish Hill. It was my first time in Polish Hill. It was totally not where I thought it would be. And if you thought the roads in Squirrel Hill were screwy, they are nothing compared to the ones over there. I think I had to back up like 3 times to make sharp U-turns. It was crazy but I was able to parallel park perfectly twice. That may have been the highlight of my evening. ;)

Anyway, Gooski's was pretty awesome. It was a total dive bar and I loved it. I think that cop was right. I am a dive bar kind of girl. Graffiti everywhere, an old school juke box, pool tables in the back. I even tried chicken wings for like the first time ever. They were pretty tasty, a little salty but yummmm.

I'm currently re-watching the final season of Gilmore Girls. I don't remember much of these episodes. They all seem brand new to me.

#274

Pomme sent me a bueno! Sooooo happy!!!

#273

Today I

• did not work
• did not wear a bra
• cleaned my bathroom
• did some laundry
• rediscovered toast with butter
• devoured my stash of Christmas chocolate
• wondered when deodorant got to be so expensive
• made some pizza
• installed some digital cable converter boxes

All in all, not a bad day. Just not very exciting, but I guess that is better than a horrible day, right?

#272

Ever feel like life is just running away from you, taking you along for the ride and you're just barely holding on?

It feels like that at the moment.

Aussie posted a few weeks back about not being herself anymore. I get that. I feel the same. But I think I like the new me?

#271

In case anyone else was wondering: No, I am not pregnant.

#270

Yup, yup!!!

#269

I am exhausted. Like every part of me hurts and I want to stay in bed for days. This weekend was a bit unexpected to be perfectly honest.

Thursday: work, 80's night, 3 hours of sleep

Friday: work, Rap concert, bar, Eat-N-Park

Saturday: work, South Side

Sunday: off of work, cleaned around the apartment, hot chocolate

Throw in life and family drama, a bit more alcohol than I should have had and not enough food. I feel like I need a weekend to recuperate from my weekend. How do people do it all the time?

#268

I think I found our new Wanted.

#267

Guys!!! I get a day off tomorrow!!!!!!!

I'm just a little bit excited. I will have worked 8 days in a row. It hasn't been that bad and the shifts haven't been that long. But its just been monotonous and I'm ready for it to be over.

I finally picked up my room but I still need to do some work on it. Maybe I'll do it on my day off or maybe not.

I've decided to stay off of facebook for a week. Just to see if I could do it. But then Toi told me Pomme had posted pictures of their weekend in Chicago. However, I was on for just a brief second, looked at the pictures (PENGUINS!) and got right off. The first couple of days were rough but it is getting easier.

Also I need, NEED to have this dress. I think my entire summer hinges on it.

#266

I was serenaded with this song today. Oh boyyyy

#265

Today at work the cook told me why I am having such a hard time with all this snow...

I'm lacking romance in my life.

Yup, I need a guy to take me up to Seven Springs for a nice sleigh ride. Followed by some time in front a fire with a nice bottle of wine. And then I wont be bothered by the snow anymore.

It is all so simple.

In other news, I started and finished a puzzle tonight.

#264

• I am so jealous of these kids. If only my parents had allowed us to take a year off of school as tweens and spend it traveling the world, taking ballet lessons in Russia, attending Milan fashion week. My childhood was so deprived.
• The snow continues. Briefly, the weather on my google page told me it would stop on thursday. Now it says sunday. I am dubious.
• I need to clean my room. I know I do. I'm just working on finding the motivation. I might start first with changing my sheets and see how that goes. But which ones do I put on-hot pink, purple or paisley?
• Buying a plane ticket home for my cousin's wedding has turned into a giant pain. One website offered a roundtrip ticket from PGH to Flint for over $1,000. Umm...no. If I'm spending that much I'm flying first class to Europe.
• I've run out of things to say so I'm just going to publish this post now.

#263

It will not stop snowing here in Pittsburgh. It is getting to be annoying. It's like it is winter or something. I don't remember it being like this last year.

Totes McGoats is the new totally. It goes with everything. I love using it.

I saw Nine and was not in love with it. I kept comparing it to other musicals and then I got bored. I think I may have expected too much of it.

#262

Toi has to leave tomorrow. We are dealing with it by drinking lots o' beer.

Things we overheard from the most annoying man ever:

-My housemate (or as Toi heard my house maid) Cynthia is on food stamps but she isn't poor

-Rape is the ultimate violation

-I asked Amanda to marry me if we were both single in 10 years, she e-mailed me about it this morning, our personalities just mesh well together

-Socialism...blah, blah, blah...Capitalism

-I truly need to work for the greater good of humanity

-I don't mind full body security scans, if they want to see my dick, then let them

I just wanted him to shut up. I even considered making out with him so this would happen but no matter how much I drank I couldn't do it.

Toi is holding the bottle of beer with her teeth, quite impressive.

The new Vampire Weekend album, all the songs sound the same. Like for real, ALL THE SAME. Not horrid, but no difference. (Philly Cheesesteak)

I am still mad at the way the Doctor treated Donna. Regenerating will not erase what he did.

Toi's brother thinks we are always in a bar but it is not true. NOT TRUE.

I ate at a restaurant that reminded me of Pomme today. Like for real so much like Pomme.

Toi is making music with her beer bottle but she ran out of breath.

WHO WAS COMA.

#261

Hello 2010!

I didn't even realize 2009 was the last year of the decade until about 3 days. I just didn't think about it. Oh, well.

NYE was unlike any NYE I've ever had. Toi and I spent it eating delicious food and drinking yummy wine. Dear god, how delicious is duck? This shall be the year of the duck. Then we came back to the apartment so I could take a nap. We totally meant to go to a party but instead I slept. Its official. I'm old. I did wake up in time to ring in the new year. Woo?

Okay, so no resolutions for this year just try to make things better. That works, right?