#136

My mom came into town this weekend. We hung out, ate at some cool restaurants, saw some movies and shopped. Oh boy did we shop! My mom is handling me moving out by buying me stuff for my new life. I tried to tell her I didn't need all this stuff but she insisted and it quickly became a moot point. So I get all excited because really who doesn't like new stuff? 

But my high quickly comes crashing down when I get home and all Buddy can say is 'where are we going to put all of this?, do we need it? why does your mom buy you stuff?' I can't help it if my parents like me. What am I supposed to do? Reject the presents because for the next 8 months I am living with her? I mean eventually (and not soon enough) I will no longer be living with her and I will need plates and pots and pans.

I guess it all boils down to this. I am no longer in school. This is my real life now. Michigan no longer feels like home. I realized this during Christmas break. It threw me for a huge loop. I didn't know how to feel or talk about it. Pittsburgh is my future right now. Sure it may change along the way but I'm okay with that. I want all my possessions in one place, one city, one state. I don't think its unreasonable request. Its been almost 5 years of living in 2 different locations. Its exhausting. I don't see how it affects Buddy or her parents. I want my apartment to feel like MY apartment not my dorm room that I have to vacate during school breaks. I want pictures on the wall and comfy furniture and dinner parties! This is the first time in a long time I am living somewhere with no expiration date. I always knew at AQ that come the first week of May I would be moving back home and come August I would return to AQ. France was only for a few months. 

But Pittsburgh, its until I want to leave and that is a bizarrely wonderful feeling.