- The apartment search still continues. It is getting to be super frustrating. I'm so sick of moving every year for the past 7 years so I was hoping we could find a place where we wouldn't mind staying put for at least 2. Maybe I'm just being super picky? I don't know. However, since we haven't found a place yet and my lease is up in 3 days, I get to move in with the boyfriend at his house with his two roommates. And the one roommate's fiance is also moving in due to the same circumstances. It's like a really twisted version of Full House. I just keep reminding myself that it is only for a month and I'll be gone for a week of it. Who knows, maybe we'll find a place whose lease starts mid-August.
- This being part of a couple thing has its ups and downs. Definitely more ups than downs but it's not always smooth sailing. Trying to figure out how to deal with stress and moving and a significant other can be hard. I'll admit I lost it a bit on Tuesday. I was just really sick of everything. Of being patient with others and them never ever returning the patience. Of them never thinking of how their actions are affecting anyone else but them. It's not him but I was maybe taking a bit of it out on him. It's really frustrating and I don't want to deal with it anymore. But a morning spent with Sniper helped me get back on track. And then I lost my phone which just kinda sent me into one of those crazy laughing fits where I just didn't care anymore.
- I got the phone back with limited craziness. It is a bit beat up and the lens on the camera is cracked. But it is functional and I really don't care much past that.
- I had a bit of a 'whoa! this is totally weird and foreign to me' moment when I was shopping for a birthday card for his sister and I realized we'd sign the card together. It seemed so official couply. I don't know why I had a problem with it and I got over it. I guess it just seems like something my parents do and they are grown ups and I am but a wee child still. Or something like that. But she liked my card and loved my gift and that felt pretty awesome.
- Lately, I've felt a lot closer to my dad than my mom. It's nice and I'm enjoying the conversations with my dad. But I feel really lonely without my mom. Our conversations seem strained at times and then at others, she can be kinda snarky at me. I get that she's going through a lot right now and I'm going through a lot right now. Perhaps we're just handling it all the same which makes it difficult for us to help the other one. I don't know but I'm hoping it corrects itself on vacation. I miss her.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
#303
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
#302
I introduced the boyfriend (I cannot think of a nickname for him at all) to my dad's side of family this weekend. It was a lot easier than I expected. My grandma was cranky wanted to know why was he dating me because it sure wasn't for my high paying job but everyone else seemed really nice. AUNT and Cogene took the initiative and decided to invite him for Christmas and a camping trip in the fall. And then he accepted so I guess we're spending Christmas in Michigan.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
#301
The cancer I can deal with, it's happened before with other grandparents. But she told me if he has it, it is going to require major facial surgery and that really gets me. Just the fact that my grandpa may not look the way he has always looked before seems totally bizarre.
I'm just really sick of cancer. It's been popping up a lot lately and I could use a break from it.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
#300
I've discovered I will be spending the 4th of July here with my dad's side of the family. It is going to be a lot of people in one house. I've done that before with my mom's side but I think this may be trickier. I'm going to arm myself with my laptop and some sort of alcoholic beverage at all times. I've been told that there will be kegs and numerous bottles of wine. I'm trying to psych myself up for this by hoping that there will be ranch dispensers in all of the rooms.
In August, I'll be going on a family vacation with my parents to Charleston. I actually excited for this one. It should be a week of relaxation and beach and my dog. I really can't think of anything wrong with that. There are a lot of logistics before I can make it to the vacation such as find a new apartment, move to new apartment, find new job, not explode from all of the stress. I think it is doable. But sometimes, I'm just not so sure.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
#299
- I finally got around to ordering my messenger bag; I went with the yellow and white one. The bike shop ended up gifting it to me. I was really touched and surprised. They also threw in a blinky light to clip to it for riding at night. I think I am now officially a cyclist, hahaha!
- I went on an inaugural ride with the bike and a friend. Somehow going at dusk through traffic to a bike where we rode the trails deep down into the valley to drink some beer seemed like the best idea. It was terrifying and a lot of fun! I think I shall do it again.
- I also think the bike ride may be why my left leg currently looks like this:

- They really mean it when they say NO PARKING. I got my car towed. I got my car back. It was fun but nothing I would like to repeat any time soon.
- Yesterday, Sniper and I took off to run around the city in celebration of her 25th birthday. We painted pottery and visited the Phipps. We saw the Agave plant that only blooms once in a 100 years then dies. It looked just like a plant.
- For the first time in 10 years when given the opportunity to plan the family vacation, I passed. I gave my mom the names of some websites and turned it over to her. I had absolutely no desire to plan the relaxing dream week for everyone else. I think we're going to Charleston, SC and we may be getting a condo or house. But I'm not really sure. I'll just show up with a bathing suit and it'll be just fine.
- Ohhh and I'm kinda seeing someone. It's new and fun! and we'll just see where it goes.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
#298

I got a bike!!
That's right, a bike. It's super cute and blue! That's about all I know about it other than it has a Panasonic frame. My friend built it for me and then surprised me at work with it. Some dude I had only met once bought me some really nice tires for it. And then I was gifted a helmet and a lock. Its all pretty sweet!! Makes me smile uncontrollably really.
There's only one problem. They all expect me to ride it except the thought of riding in Pittsburgh traffic with Pittsburgh hills seems terrifying. I need some Michigan terrain, all flat and not cobblestones.
Sunday, May 2, 2010
#297
I mean, back in MI I can go weeks, months without running into someone I know in public. Sometimes I feel like I know absolutely no one in my hometown. So it really confuses me here, in a city of millions, I keep bumping into the same people.
But tonight for some reason, even in my bad, funky mood, seeing someone I knew made me feel a little bit better. It reaffirmed my love for this crazy, upside down town. A weird city that has captured my heart and refuses to let go. I can't quite put into words why I feel so connected here. I just know I'm not ready to move on from PGH just quite yet. Anyway, it made me feel just a little bit better and it's what I needed.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
#296
I want all of my best friends living in the same city. I want a job I like. I want to do things on my own time frame. I don't want critiques from others. I want people to back off. I want others to step up. I want an apartment with long, flowy curtains. I want my car back. I want to cook again. I want people to stop wondering. I don't run through guys like that, I just don't. I want to stop second guessing my own feelings. I want to jump in rain puddles and blow bubbles. I don't want to be frustrated anymore. I want to be by myself and surrounded by others all in the same instant. I just want out for a little bit.
I love the word just.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
#295
PS They don't seem to fit in the frame. They did when I looked at the preview. I'm too tired to mess around with it but you guys get the picture (HARHARHAR!)
Sunday, April 25, 2010
#294
My day was pretty fabulous and full of fun. My parents took me to Pamela's for breakfast and then we stopped by the Top Chef tour where we saw Eli and Richard Blais. They are very short. I took my parents on a tour of the city and showed them the new neighborhoods I'm considering moving to in August. My mom promptly freaked out and said no. We fought a bit over it, I drank some wine, we've agreed to keep discussing it. Dinner was at Church Brew Works. I had steak, it was yummy.
My night then took me to a bar to watch the Pens game and I'm ashamed to admit I cheered them on. But I should state that I never cheered for Crosby. Next we went to Lawrenceville: Art All Night which was really, really cool. It was a huge warehouse filled with people and art and musicians and oddly enough pirates. I wished we could have spent more time there but we ended up moving to Belvedere's where they were having roller skating. And that is how I ended up roller skating in a bar on my 24th birthday. It was an adventure for sure but loads and loads of fun!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
#293
Monday, April 19, 2010
#292
But before I could get to my new glasses, they had to get approval from my insurance and it wasn't working. I had to call my mom to get my dad's SSN and she ended up giving me 2 possibilities. None of those were working either. And then it hit me, my life has been a lie. My family must be in the witness protection program and no one ever told me. Or we're royalty banished from our rightful home. God, it all makes perfect sense. But then Ginger broke my dream bubble and informed me that the insurance company had simply for some odd reason shortened my dad's name to Berna. I could have been a princess, I tell you.
I figured out how I am going to convince my parents that moving to Bloomfield or Lawrenceville is a good idea. They have Catholic Churches. No way will my parents have any issues now. Sure, I stopped going to church years ago and I don't really follow any Catholic rules anymore. That doesn't matter because with a church in my neighborhood there would be a slight, slight, slight increase in the odd chance that I may wonder into a church. Huzzah! WIN!
I've also decided I should get a handyman special apartment. And then I could paint walls and like nail stuff. I'd be awesome at it. And when you all come to visit, you could leave your mark. Think about how cool it would be, come on now, you know it would be.
#291
Anyway, today I wandered around Pittsburgh by myself. In all the time I've lived here, it was a first for me. I made my way to Lawrenceville for their Blossom tour. I didn't stop at all of the shops and I didn't take seeds from all of my stops. I did, however, find birthday presents for a few people who may have birthdays coming up. It was a very cool afternoon even if it was like 40 degrees out and I didn't bring gloves.
But as I wandered over Lawrenceville, I realized I really, really want to move there or Bloomfield. These neighborhoods aren't as pretty as Squirrel Hill and probably aren't as safe, not that they are super dangerous. They just aren't as family orientated. I just can't stand Squirrel Hill anymore. I feel restless and bored here. Nothing is new, nothing is exciting, nothing is inspirational. I want out.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
#290
I'm sitting in a cafe right now. It is their birthday and they are offering cappuccinos for only $.61. I haven't had a real one in a really long time. I forgot how could they can be with their frothiness. I may have to get another and then one to take with me when I leave. Also people watching is the single greatest free pastime ever. People are sooo funny.
I need to get some new headphones. I can hear that mine are about to die. They've lasted a year with is uber long for a pair of my headphones. I used to kill them within weeks. And while I will probably just buy another pair of earbuds from Target, I kind of really want to get a pair like these. They are so impractical and I would probably only use them a few times.
I discovered my mom may send me to Panama for Easter next year. Panama City, Florida not Panama City, Panama. I first assumed the country and was bewildered, certain I would die from a tropical disease but at least I would get to see the canal. I don't know how I feel about this. It probably wont happen. But just so you know, plane tickets from Pittsburgh to Panama City, Panama start at $377. That seems really cheap. It also appears to take all day to get there.
The 4th dress I picked out for my birthday is sold out. I give up and am just going to wear something in my closet. It seems like the most responsible decision and isn't that what growing up is all about.
I'm a bit late to the game but I watched the first episode of the new Doctor Who last night. I don't know what to think. I liked parts. I was bored during others. I spent most of my time screaming at the computer because I knew what he had to do and he was taking too long. I wished he would have kept young Amelia. I liked her a lot better.
Oh and with Toi's encouragement, I cut up a pair of jeans and made some shorts. So far I feel like it was the right decision and I am loving them.
Monday, April 5, 2010
#289
Saturday, April 3, 2010
#288
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
#287
Saturday, March 27, 2010
#286
- Pomme came to visit! It was awesome! I made her take the bus with me all over. We explored bridges and found a cemetery in the middle of the skyscrapers. We ate here and here and here. Yummmmmm!!! We also visited the Andy Warhol Museum. My favorite room was the 'Silver Clouds.'
- I met a member of Huey Lewis and the News. We had a drink together.
- Everyone lately has been asking me about my plans for the future and what I want to do with my life. And guess what? I have no clue. I don't know. I'm working on it.
- I went on two dates last week with two different guys. It was interesting. They were fun and I had a good time. But I just didn't feel that spark, you know? I, again, don't know. I want to feel that spark. And then I just feel bad. In fact, I saw one of the guys at the grocery store and I fled to the back of the store until he left. I'm a coward.
- Passover started last night so for the last week, work has been insane. I hate it. LOATHE IT. I'm trying to be nice about it but I can't. Not being able to eat carbs really makes people go insanely bitchy.
- My printer and I are currently engaged in a battle. I keep losing but I'm refusing to give up. I think I could win if I just keep trying.
- I went home for my cousin's wedding. I learned that my family thinks I'm an alcoholic or at the very least, a lush. Sweeeeeeeet. I really don't think it's my fault that the only time I appear in the wedding photos, I'm at the bar. It's totally the photographer's fault.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
#285
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
#284
Sunday, February 14, 2010
#283
Friday, February 12, 2010
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
#281
Monday, February 8, 2010
Sunday, February 7, 2010
#279
Saturday, February 6, 2010
#278



Friday, February 5, 2010
#277
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Sunday, January 31, 2010
#275
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
#273
- did not work
- did not wear a bra
- cleaned my bathroom
- did some laundry
- rediscovered toast with butter
- devoured my stash of Christmas chocolate
- wondered when deodorant got to be so expensive
- made some pizza
- installed some digital cable converter boxes
Monday, January 25, 2010
#272
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Monday, January 18, 2010
#269
Thursday: work, 80's night, 3 hours of sleep
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
#267
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Thursday, January 7, 2010
#265
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
#264
- I am so jealous of these kids. If only my parents had allowed us to take a year off of school as tweens and spend it traveling the world, taking ballet lessons in Russia, attending Milan fashion week. My childhood was so deprived.
- The snow continues. Briefly, the weather on my google page told me it would stop on thursday. Now it says sunday. I am dubious.
- I need to clean my room. I know I do. I'm just working on finding the motivation. I might start first with changing my sheets and see how that goes. But which ones do I put on-hot pink, purple or paisley?
- Buying a plane ticket home for my cousin's wedding has turned into a giant pain. One website offered a roundtrip ticket from PGH to Flint for over $1,000. Umm...no. If I'm spending that much I'm flying first class to Europe.
- I've run out of things to say so I'm just going to publish this post now.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
#263
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Friday, January 1, 2010
#261
Monday, December 28, 2009
#260
Monday, December 21, 2009
#259
I am currently sitting at work even though my shift doesn't start for a half hour. I over estimated the amount of time I would need at Barnes & Noble. Then my favorite coffee shop was filled with people. All these people I have never seen before so clearly they are just there to bug me.
Oh I didn't mention that the cold that has been looming for the last 2 months has finally hit. So I am a bit irrational and congested and sore throaty and a teensy bit miserable. Just ignore me. Really.
For real? This little boy is having a complete breakdown over his pizza bagel and something about toasting? He keeps staring at me too. I don't get children. They scare me.
Friday, December 18, 2009
#258
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
#257
Sunday, December 13, 2009
#256
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
#255
Monday, December 7, 2009
#254
Sunday, December 6, 2009
#253
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
#252
Friday, November 27, 2009
#251
Sunday, November 15, 2009
#250
Monday, November 2, 2009
#249
Monday, October 19, 2009
#248
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
#247
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
#246
Sunday, September 27, 2009
#245
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
#244
Sunday, September 20, 2009
#243
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
#242
I skipped #238. My bad.
Monday, September 14, 2009
#241
#240
Friday, September 11, 2009
#239
Steeler season.
Once again the city is decked out in black and gold. Buses' signs flash with 'GO STEELERS.' And almost everyone wears their jersey or t-shirt that proclaims Superbowl Champs! Even our Coke cans have been taken over.

Monday, September 7, 2009
#236
Thursday, September 3, 2009
#235
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
#234
Sunday, August 30, 2009
#233
Friday, August 28, 2009
#232
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
#231
Saturday, August 22, 2009
#230
- I broke my digital camera
- I broke my headphones
- I had to say goodbye to Parrot
- I had to say goodbye to Pickle
- A customer grabbed me at work. It wasn't to get my attention so I could help him with something. It was simply just to touch me. I didn't like it. I really didn't.
- I may be a dive bar sort of girl. I can't decide if I like that or if I don't.
- I still haven't unpacked. I hate that I'm not done yet. But I have no energy or desire to do it.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
#229
Sunday, August 16, 2009
#228
We moved!
I still really like our new place but totally lack all motivation to unpack.
I'll update later with pictures once we get our own internet. This connection keeps cutting out for me.
Ciao!
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
#227
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
#226
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Sunday, August 2, 2009
#224
I seem to have misplaced my Social Security card. It is the same one I just had replaced about a year ago. I for some reason had it stored in my scanner. It was safe there and I knew just where it was so I left it. But then I had to align the print cartridges and I moved it. The only problem is I cannot remember where I moved it to. I'm sort of scared that I packed it away but I don't remember. So now I get to go through all the boxes I've already packed to look for a business sized card. Awesome!
Never mind. I found it in the very first box I opened. YAY!
Saturday, August 1, 2009
#223
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Sunday, July 26, 2009
#221
Thursday, July 23, 2009
#220
- I re-watched Home Alone. Why did they fly to Paris on the morning flight? Do they even have 8 am flights to Paris? There is no way they could have made it to the airport, checked luggage and cleared security with 11 people in 45 minutes. Yes, Home Alone is a movie. I get that but for some reason it really bothered me.
- As I continue packing for the move, I discovered I have way too many t-shirts. I blame AQ for this. I really don't even wear t-shirts anymore but I don't want to get rid of them. I'll have to figure out something to do with them.
- During one of my many discussions with this last week my mom as she cleaned out the basement, she informed that if I wanted to keep my stuff I really needed to start moving it out. That took me a bit by surprise but I guess I'm not in college anymore so it makes sense. I just need to figure out where to put it all.
- Coming home at 2 in the morning and discovering the chain on the door sucks.
- Late night conversations in the rain are pretty fun.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
#219
| Which American accent do you have? Neutral You're not Northern, Southern, or Western, you`re just plain -American-. Your national identity is more important than your local identity, because you don`t really have a local identity. You might be from the region in that map, which is defined by this kind of accent, but you could easily not be. Or maybe you just moved around a lot growing up. |
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I sorta hate these quizzes as I second guess almost every answer.
Monday, July 20, 2009
#218
Sunday, July 19, 2009
#217
Saturday, July 18, 2009
#216
I love it here. I really don't want to leave to go back to my real life. It is a lot more fun to run around the city, spending money and eating tons of yummy food. But I guess that is all apart of growing up and being an adult.
This is the first time I have spent more than one night in the Windy city and I like it. I really do. So maybe if Seattle doesn't work out as my next city, I will move here. Who knows??
Monday, July 13, 2009
#215
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
#213
Sunday, June 28, 2009
#212

Friday, June 26, 2009
#211
Sunday, June 21, 2009
#210
- My family came to visit. It was really nice to hang out with them. Though, I wished they hadn't brought my grandparents. They are getting mean and called me fat about 3 times.
- I saw No Doubt in concert. It was amazing.
- Its official! I'm going to visit Pomme in July! I am so so so excited!
- I am one Italian Ice purchase away from a free one. I am also really excited about that.
- I now own a George Foreman grill. I finally made it to the 90's.
- I think I want to own my own used bookstore with a small cafe.
- I discovered PNC Park sells Oberon. I may have to go to more baseball games.
- I think I could live in a large city for the rest of my life as long as I have a cabin to escape to in the country.
